TRAIN ME, USE ME, OWN ME !

Recently, I shared a video on X HERE, fully crossdressed on my bed, my ass fucked by a huge black dildo, moaning for more, a taste of the submission I crave. Today, I’m confessing a deeper fantasy: becoming a devoted cocksucker for a cruel Dominant, my lips wrapped around a real cock, filmed for the world to see as I surrender completely. I’ve only tasted real cock once, but I crave it, on camera, in shame, as a sissy offering to a Master or Mistress. To prove my longing, I’ve filmed two videos of me worshipping a dildo, practicing for the day a Dom claims me. This is my plea: train me, use me, own me, and make my cocksucking dreams a humiliating reality.

A Sissy’s Deepest Craving

Cocksucking has haunted my fantasies since I first embraced my sissy identity. I dream of kneeling before a Dominant, my chastity cage locked tight, my lips trembling as I beg, “Please, Sir, let this sissy worship your cock.” I imagine a Master, tall, commanding, with a thick BBC, grabbing my head, forcing me to take every inch while they degrade me: “You’re a brainless faggot, Sébastien, a cumrag made for sucking.” I’d gag, my eyes watering, my sissy heart racing with every thrust, knowing they’re filming it for my blog. The video would be titled “Sissy Sébastien: Cock Whore Exposed,” a permanent mark of my submission, reposted across the internet as I become a global sissy plague.

I’ve tasted real cock only once, as I confessed in my TRUTH” page, but I crave more,a filmed scene where I’m used, shamed, and exposed. I want to be on my knees in a hotel room, a collar around my neck, my lips painted red with cheap lipstick that smears as I suck. I’d wear fishnets, crotchless panties, and a sheer top, my chastity cage visible as a reminder of my locked submission. My Dom would make me look into the camera, whimpering, “I’m Sissy Sébastien, your cock whore,” before they push me back down, their laughter echoing as I gag. That video, uploaded to my blog’s 40+ videos, would be my ultimate surrender, a sissy dream come true.

Practicing for My Master

While I wait for a Dominant to claim me, I’ve been practicing, training my sissy lips to please a real cock. Below are two videos I filmed, worshipping a dildo with the devotion I’d give to a Master or Mistress. These aren’t just practice, they’re a plea, a submissive offering to the Dom who’ll own me. I imagine them watching, laughing at my pathetic attempts, then ordering me to do it for real, on camera, for the world to see. Each video is a step closer to my fantasy, a taste of the shame I crave, a call for a sadistic hand to guide me.

In this video, I’m captured in a close-up side view, my mouth wrapped around a large black dildo, sucking with desperate devotion. I’m wearing a tight collar around my neck, heavy makeup, red lipstick, smoky eyeliner, and blush, and a long, wavy wig that frames my face as I bob my head. My lips stretch around the dildo, lipstick smearing as I take it deeper, gagging softly while I moan, “I’m your sissy slut, Sir.” My eyes flick to the camera, wide with submissive longing, as I pull back to lick the tip, whispering, “Train me for your real cock, Master.” The video ends with my lips glistening, a sissy ready to serve.

This POV-style video is filmed from the top, showing a pair of false legs I created, clad in black boots, with a large black dildo positioned between them like a real cock. I’m on my knees below, dressed in a full set of red lingerie, bra, panties, garter belt, my makeup heavy with red lipstick and dark eyeshadow, a wig of long curls cascading over my shoulders. I look up at the camera, whimpering, “I’m Sissy Sébastien, your brainless faggot,” before leaning in to lick the dildo, worshipping it like a real cock. I suck deeply, my tongue swirling, my hands gripping the false legs as I moan, “Please, Sir, let me worship you.” The video ends with me gazing up, a sissy cock whore begging for more.

A Public Sissy Cocksucker

In my fantasy, my Dominant doesn’t keep my cocksucking private, they make it a public spectacle. They’d film me sucking a real cock in a hotel room, live-streaming it for hundreds of viewers. Comments would flood in: “What a pathetic faggot,” “Make her gag more,” “She’s a cock whore.” My Dom would read them aloud, laughing as I blush under my smeared lipstick, my sissy heart racing with every degrading word. They’d command me to thank the audience: “Thank you for mocking this cocksucking sissy.” The stream would hit thousands of views, my blog linked in the description, my  posts and videos a gallery of my shame.

They’d take it further, ordering me to suck in semi-public places, a hotel hallway, a public restroom, or a gloryhole, filming each act for my blog. I imagine kneeling in a restroom stall, “Cock Whore” written on my chest in marker, sucking a dildo while my Dom films, whispering, “Imagine this is real, you faggot.” The video would be posted with a caption: “Sissy Sébastien: Training for Real Cock in Public.” They’d encourage reposts: “Download this, spread her shame,” knowing I’m turned on by every unknown upload to Reddit, Pornhub, or forums. My cocksucking shame would be a global plague, my sissy lips a viral spectacle.

The Power of Submission

Cocksucking isn’t just a physical act, it’s the ultimate submission for me. On my knees, lips stretched, gagging for a Dom’s pleasure, I’d feel my mind empty, my identity reduced to “brainless faggot,” “cumrag,” “cock whore.” I crave the verbal degradation that comes with it, my Dom calling me a worthless slut, a sissy made to serve, their words cutting deeper than any thrust. They’d make me recite my place on camera: “I’m Sissy Sébastien, your cocksucking cumrag, here to be used.” I’d repeat it, trembling, as they upload the video to my blog, ensuring my shame is permanent, my 4videos a testament to my devotion.

I want to push my limits, maybe sucking two cocks at once, maybe swallowing cum on camera, maybe doing it in a semi-public gloryhole while strangers watch. My hard limits remain, no blood, scat, child, religion, heavy pain, diapers, but I’m curious about the edges I haven’t found. I want my Dom to choose the setting, the words, the exposure, turning me into a sissy cocksucker for their pleasure. 

Comment below with degrading tasks or questions for my “Truth” page. Mock this cumrag, laugh at my dildo worship, order my next cocksucking act. Download my videos, repost them anywhere, Reddit, Pornhub, forums. I’m public domain, a sissy meant to be shared. My lips are ready, my heart is trembling, my shame is yours to command.

Who will train me to suck for real?

Who will make me a sissy cocksucker for their pleasure?

I’m waiting, on my knees, ready to serve.